Wednesday, July 30, 2003


*Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? Sponge Bob Square Pants!*


Ok damn,that song is stuck in my mind.My sis actually d/l-ed it and its permanently at the desktop for her own easy accessing to it.sheesh.The cartoon's not bad though;pretty cracked up.I prefer 'Oggy and the cockroaches' more.hahaha..whats ur kind of cartoon,people?i'll write or e-mail to Kids Central to show them at time slots we're so-called free.which will never happen at the rate skool's torturing us.
Anyway,to Fad,if ure reading this,in a 1 gazillion chance that you are,thank you so much for helping me with tables,or rather,html.U actually taught me Dreamweaver and iframes and imageready and slicing-all in one.when i only asked for tables.lol* thanks dok!Check out his site,people;i'll be adding it in soon.and yes,thanks a million for my dear who called up Fad to help me. *hugz* pls leave a tag or sth if ure reading this dear,dont be so lazy lah!:P
N yesh,the blinky ure seeing is inspired by Orly's Gal/Elvish popstar's site.I got hooked after seeing how adorable they look at her site.so get blinkies,people!With this,i'll sign off and consider whether or not i should bother handing up an assignment which is already confirmed a zero.Hmm mmm...

h0oked on:Nelly feat.Murphy Lee,P.Diddy-Shake Ya Tail Feather





that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 9:59 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2003


Which Spongebob character are you?
Take the SBSP test!

i think Rad and my sis would really love this ;) my sis was actually singin that spongebob song juz now!gdness me..and um mmm,im s'posed to be pissed at someone but i realised its not right to do so.Its not his/her fault that i cant participate again in a major skool event i did last year.There's such thing as 'The Boss decides it all" and "My side..your side!",isnt there?oh well.bummer.

Suddenly i feel like talkin more bout that crappy M'sian tour i went 2 days ago.Ok,so i laughed at this woman wif extremely huge assets who turned out to be the tour's organiser and then i got bitten at my lil toe by a pissed Queen of the Ants.Its still swollen red and itchy,mind you.And when i thought i was doomed,being surrounded by makciks and pakciks(middle-aged aunties and uncles),then came a group of minahs and mats(typical teen gals n guys)in tapered pants and short,denim skirts.more doomnation 4 me!

They skipped the ostrich farm because time was running out and some ppl took FOREVER to get on bus.So most of the day was occupied by waiting,waiting and more waiting! *sighs* well,the hightlight of the day is shopping @ Mini Kelatan;i've got a new top + skirt,thanks to my mum who obviously wanted to cheer her miserable daughter up.*hugs mum* thanx,ure da best!

And yeah,thats about it,i guess.Countdown to weekend.I need sleep A.S.A.P.!

h0oked on:The Ataris-The Boys of Summer




that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 9:15 PM

Monday, July 28, 2003


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh..
Yes,i did it again.i saw the wrong timetable AGAIN.on a same freaking MONDAY.As to quote my bf whom once again witnessed my boo-boo this morning,my brains are completely "fried" after yesterday unsuccessful M'sian tour.and the thing is,i've got a handful of stuff required to bring today.stuff like assignments......so yeah,im dead meat AGAIN.
Why,why,why???Why me?!!!!!!!and yesterday super-dee-duper-tired nite,i really thought i could go home at 11am today and have a good sleep.But now?5pm???!!!!!!
Why,why,why??
slacking till 10am now.when i know rite about this minute,i can do so many stuff at home like sleeping and finishing my assignments.
Why,why,why?? :(

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 8:34 AM

Sunday, July 27, 2003


These tears I've cried
I've cried 1000 oceans
And if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
Well, I can't believe that I would keep
Keep you from flying
And I would cry 1000 more
If that's what it takes
To sail you home
Sail you home
Sail you home.....


a million apologies for my last entry.i wasnt feelin good and emotional crackdown like dat happens sometimes.feelin an iota better now.i didnt really sleep last night;my mind was preoccupied wif something else.but nvm about that now.Tori Amos soothes one's soul,without a doubt.and im leaving for this Malaysian tour my mum signed up for both of us today.so approximately 4 hours to go.*achooo* urgh,terrible cold im having from yesterday!
-sameer,wherever you are in dreamland now..i miss you..


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 1:29 AM

Saturday, July 26, 2003


i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.i am ugly.

i am brainless.i am brainless.i am brainless.i am brainless.i am brainless.

i am useless.i am useless.i am useless.i am useless.i am useless.i am useless.

i am stupid.i am stupid.i am stupid.i am stupid.i am stupid.i am stupid.

**note to myself- its just one of those days where u just feel like u dont belong anywhere.u put up a fake smile and fake laugh here and there and say "im fine" everytime a fren asks u whether ure ok.u big fat liar.not a big hug can cheer u up.not a warm smile can lift ur spirits up.u| juz | feel | lifeless .and someone commenting that ure having a mood swing isnt helping enough either.even a kiss from that special someone fails to maintain that real smile of urs for a second.and wad do u resort to?SLEEP.typical way of solvin a terrible emotion-pandemonium. *sighs*

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:06 AM

Friday, July 25, 2003


*Johor Bahru and the kidnapped Bloat*


Just got back from JB,a last minute date with my beloved mum.Yep,no skool 4 today but am going for the StageArts Auditions later at 5pm(im interviewin "potential StageArts-ean" along wif WITCH *sinister smile*).
Rite about now,my lil sista,blazin_ana,is complainin and whining her head off about her kidnapped 'Bloat'.Ya know that Macdonalds' "Finding Nemo" coin purse/keychain not sometime ago?The yellow,black-dotted,kinda podgy Bloat-fish?yea,dat one.Apparently a gang of rowdy guys/kentalans from her skool was trailing her from behind and 1 of them had the cheek to pull her Bloat keychain purse from her bag!Wad the hell.He even said 2 her,as ditated by my sis,"cute and style!" "give ya back on monday!" !!!!!
My poor sister could have show them her karate moves or the finger itself,but they were heading 4 the mosque 4 their Friday prayers.crap.She's sayin now "i wanna report 2 the police 4 this man!!" hahaha.actually,this whole thing is kinda funny.i mean,look at the situation itself.i bet 99.9% that guy has a thing on her or somethin :P we'll wait 4 the outcome on monday.she's hatin me now 4 not siding her on how serious this is.Geez!Secondary skool days!how i miss them! *sighs*

h0oked on:Eminem-Business



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 1:58 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2003


IAmARudeKitten
I am a rude kitten with a little pink butt


Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you?
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cuuuuuutte!am slacking away wif WITCH,Miss India and her bf in the computer lab.we have the whole freakin lab to ourselves so Witch's making a din!hahaha..dumb-dumb StageArts meeting is at 7pm.dang!sam's playing soccer now with his doks gang.he's probably waiting for me to finish. *dreamy sighs* aightz,good afternoon to all!


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 5:55 PM

Monday, July 21, 2003


Why cant we control ourselves sometimes?
Why does temptation gets into the way?
Why must it be so sinful?
Why are we betrayed?
Why does the sun shine when it happens?
Why should feelings burst
And wipe out all our conscience?
Why,why,why
Why am i asking these questions
When i know beneath my soul lies the truth
Why should it lead to a confession
That i am so addicted to you?

*corrupted scribbles by me,on a lazy,dry monday afternoon.

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 3:20 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2003


its a freakin sunday!


[sunday morning]
added some more people >> Alvons,CrazYounGal,Punkish and Rusydi..so check them all out yea?gd aFTERnoon 2 all!lazy suNDAY aftERnoon here..if you're woNDERing why my fonTS are loOKIng like thIS,its beCausE my sis,bLAzin_ana's fingers arE FEeling a BIT too itchy at THE moment.*grimaCEs* sistErs!cANt live wITH them..cant livE without them...
[sunday afternoon]
i juz remembered,i was s'posed 2 blog somethin V.important yesterday but was too exhausted to come online..so here goes,"Happy Belated 9 mths anniversary,dear" *hugs*
[sunday late afternoon--NOW]
Dont know why but suddenly i felt like listening to Creep.im slacking away,ignoring that irritating voice inside my head urging me to do some skoolwork.bleah.live life to the fullest,they say.im living mine on the fullest potential of getting hell in skool tomorrow.so wee.bring on the popcorn!


*to the one and only*
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special.........

h0oked on:Radiohead-Creep





that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 5:27 PM

Friday, July 18, 2003


been browsin around blogger's world a lot lately.added a new link,'azarini';check out her gorgeous purplish-black layout!wicked!and oh,my parents got back from their Tioman holiday today..and guess what?my favourite woman in the world,a.k.a. MY MUM,has plans to go Bintan Lagoon this National day!such patriotic people we are,eh?i cant wait!! *dances around my room*

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:54 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2003



2 Hot 2 Handle!!
oh yeah man~ watched 2 Fast 2 Furious today with that special someone. *shy smile n muaks2* my adrenaline rush is still running high,in a fuzzy,frenzied state.Screeching of tyres still echo in my head.Cars;lots and lots and lots of cars still blur my vision-shiny,gorgeous,to-die-for cars..sighs..

hahaha..for those whose thinkin of watchin this movie,PLS DO NOT DOWNLOAD FROM THE NET!!!it'll spoil everythin,i tell ya!u wont feel involved,u wont feel that thrilling tinge of excitement going down your spine,u wont get the full package of this marvellous movie.u'll practically feel cheated.so be a little less stingy and catch it in the theatres yea?the scene shots are juz freakin awesome!ooo,and i am so in love wif Suki's car,check it out!phwoar!its pink,so wad?it looks freakin goooood.n Tyrese's crappy sense of humor will get u goin too.his purple Mitsubishi Spyder rocks!woooooo...too bad S'pore doesnt have car races like that.i wonder if a new concept of Mat/Minah Kereta(Car Dudes/Dudettes)will be borned after this movie...

(p.s.:special thanks to my dear who treated me the tickets ;) im not stingy,people..im juz plain broke.heheh!but i did fork out $$ for the nacho chips lahhhh..sheesh*)

h0oked on:Ludacris-Act a Fool




that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:37 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2003


>> CCA politics and people you just wish to disembowel >>
yes its true.sometimes,you just feel like freezing the time and strangle that particular somebody,then send that asswipe to a no-man's land for good.read WITCH's blog and see what i mean,people.Club Crawl a.k.a. CCA Day was partially designed for us seniors to have fun and check out potential boyfriends/girlfriends/those-in-your-wet-dreams-only.

BUT that 1 helluva bitch decided to spoil everything.*shrugs carelessly* my mood was quite good in the morning so i dared myself to sport on my kinda outstanding black,ala indian/bollywood skirt;those kind u see indian dancers wear.yeah.but well,that bitch and having to leave my class when they're doing a freakin cool filmin so-called project,ruined my mood.if not for WITCH and her usual crappiness,my face would be damn black for the whole day.so thanx yea buddy?
And oh oh,tomorrow's a no-school day.and my parents are leaving for their Tioman vacation too. *evil grinz @ that somebody* ;)

(p.s: fayre,ever since readin ur blog on 'Blog Etiquette',im training myself to use full forms of words now :P no shortcuts or watsoe-oops,i mean,whatsoever yea?sheesh*)


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 8:49 PM

Monday, July 14, 2003


okaaaaaay.so i juz realised that i looked at the wrong timetable on the DAMNED WHOLE.my meetin wif WITCH is cancelled now.my mood for everythin is screwed now.and i did not bring materials needed for lessons.wow.what a happy day its gonna be.*sings* fadalalalala.... :(

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 9:54 AM

Blooperz
eeek.i totally,totally forgot that today's skool timetable is according to the even week.thinkin i had an 8am class,me and my dear pushed our ways thru the heavy throngs of freshies and other 'uncategorised' students,rushing for time,and at the same time puttin our best 'seniors attitude'.when i reached the familiar but eerily empty lab,i almost screamed.NO CLASS!!!imao* so here i am in the skool's comp lab,like some dumb dumb twerp,slackin away till 10am,where my REAL class is s'posed to be held.bummer.

oh by the way,i've added a brand new link,to sophian's blogsite'.extremely cool and easy-goin guy.check his site out,people!apparently he's a fan of ayam masak merah(chicken cooked in chilli/red/wateva)too! lol* n yes,meetin WITCH today.now,that's somethin to cheer my embarassed soul up.wonder how she looks like with her new hairstyle....hm mm...

h0oked on:Simple Plan-Im just a Kid



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 9:11 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2003


strawberry surprise
well well.pink was never and will never be my kind of colour.in fact,it grosses me out 2 the max sumtimes.BUT,i've decided to swallow my pride and go pinko this season.pls bear in mind that this applies ONLY on my blogsite.my clothes still remain black,blue and anything else but pink.


anyway,went JB(johor bahru,malaysia) today wif mum n sis.my compact powder dropped in front of the S'pore immigration center,and as a result,my powder shattered into a million pieces of...well,powder.i felt like crap.its one of the compulsory,essential stuff in every lady's life-survival kit.bleah.all the same,kinda excited for skool tomorrow.the freshies are startin skool!wee.me n WITCH have planned to check out the eye-candies,err i mean,our own freshies n how they're coping;being good seniors as we always are. *wicked smile*


(p.s:a hug for my dear..i miss u!)

h0oked on:Black Eyed Peas feat Justin-Where is the Love



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 9:16 PM

Friday, July 11, 2003


3rd day of skool


since ive got no skool,my mum decided 2 resume her 'train-my-daughter-to-be-a-good-housewife' mission.so i cooked.i panicked at 1st,upon seein my Ayam masak merah (in English:Chicken cooked in red/chilli/wateva)lookin wayy different than my mum's.my 1st instinct was to run 4 my mum but she was havin guests(my mum's doin traditional massage business)so i was left alone 2 tackle d problem myself.it doesnt turned out DAT bad in d end.heh.
but all d same,im not here 2 boast of my lousy cookin skills,im here 2 share somethin dat i would consider a sensitive issue 2 me.

---The case of urban's handphone---


My hp was offically consficated by my Zulus elders(a.k.a. parents)on the 15th of April 2003.a big storm raged dat day.i was nvr comfortable 2 talk about this so openly;only my xtra-close frens knew bout this.but today,i feel like it.im currently fightin for my rights on my Hp.wad exactly happened?a relationship was involved.a guy i loved n still love,was caught in between.i was in a dilemma.we cried that day,i remembered.it was raining like mad that morning.i had never felt so ripped off my own life.its like,as if my life is controlled by them n i have no more power left to defy them.i gave up on that day.i didnt rebelled.for 3 freakin months,i lived without a mobile phone.instant communication was cuf off.n i still live.


Now....im fightin back for it.They relented on orientation day,they gave in on 1st day of skool.my mum knows that im still going out wif d guy i love;against their wishes.she knows but she keeps quiet.why?i have no idea.maybe cuz she finally sees that her dearest oldest daughter is growing up,away from her clutches of hands,no longer needing spoon-feeding.but my dad?no.he still sees me like his lovable 5yr old daughter,still hooked on Enid Blyton's books,still under his wing.i love both of the Zulus very much.i love sameer too.but i love my life more than everything,as hard as i would like 2 believe.what is life w/o knowing that u should love yourself 1st?n i want my Hp back.

h0oked on:Michelle Branch-Are you happy now



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:41 PM

Thursday, July 10, 2003


w'sup wif lecturers talkin 2 themselves?

1st day of skool went 'exceptionally' fine.i arrived at my 8am class,a couple of mins late(a lil' tradition of mine),all clueless n blurry-eyed.i dont even know whose who in my new class!thank gdness 4 Chad,or rather Rad,an ex-clazmate who landed in d same specialisation class as me or else i would have consider the idea of being a lone ranger or a pariah for d rest of my senior years.how sad..lol* not that i dont hav frens in my course,but they're all in diff specialisations!bah!so Rad,if ure readin this,thanx a million 4 stickin 2 suffer those dumb 3 hours break 2gether.sheesh* he's 1 hell of a designer pro,i tell ya.so check out his site yea!:)

On the other hand,they taught basic html in 'Web Design' n it brought me back to a memorable 2 yrs ago when i tried 2 self-learn html in a desperate attempt in makin my own site(it was durin O Levels time too!).it never happened tho.a blogsite's much simpler but i hope 2 make a site of my own 1 day,somethin's like sam's,usin flash n dreamweaver n photoshop.dat'll b some achievement 4 a pathetic so-called design student like me.lol* n ohhhh,'Chemistry' 2day was hella gd!Ck n Rachel switched back souls in d end?woah!!!cant wait 4 next wk's episode!

[p.s.>big muah* to my dear ;) ]


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:27 PM

Tuesday, July 08, 2003


HAVOC!!MAYHEM!!!CHAOS!!!

skool starts tml.yeah.urgghhhhhh.8am class.urghhhhh.can i hav a concussion like now pls?somebody knock me hard on my head wif a Tiger!um mm,no.make dat a barrel of Sugar cane juice.i remembered somebody(*grinz evilly @ dat SOMEONE whose probably readin this*)told me dat sugar cane drink can make u HIGH.like,wow.anyway,im comparin timetables wif some guys online whom i know takin d same specialisation,n it seems like none of them are in d same class as me!!blast.n w'sup wif my dad?callin me n my sis 'goons n goondus' from juz now.is he rite in his mind? *sighs deeply* fathers n their mood swings!ill juz rebuke by sprayin some water on his back while he's bz watchin 'Bad Blood' now.ta~ n wish me luck for 1st day of skool!!


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:09 PM

Sunday, July 06, 2003


You're Taking Over Me.
You're Taking Over Me, you see your lost love or
the love you haven't got yet... everywhere.


Which one of my fav songs from Evanescence are you?
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i s'posed WITCH would luv this quiz...n um mm..im doin practically nuthin online currently,n im BORED outta my mind.thus,this quiz.n oh,went for my semestral briefin yesterday..same old ppl,same old stuff,same old lecture theatre.. yawns* frankly,im kinda freaked out for d specialisation im 'destined' 2 take.Games n Design..hmm mm..1 of d module,'3D modelling n rendering' sounds scary enuff..we shall see if i can survive yea?any bets?


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:29 AM

Friday, July 04, 2003


of freshmen and ignorance

Finally.d 2003 School of Design freshmen orientation ended yesterday wif a downturn blast.i should be so-called celebratin wif some other OGLs n freshies @ Sentosa at this exact minute,but im juz too freakin exhausted n moodless for any beachy fun.which is a gd thing too cuz lookin at d weather rite now,sombre n rainy-cold,a doze under d warm,comfortable blanket of my bed sounds so much wonderful.sighs,anyway back to d orientation we go..

I see dead people

yep,its true.when i 1st got my class list for d class im in charge of,i was damn excited,cuz some of d names sounded really 1-of-a-kind,eg. Nonis Bryan Christopher(gal?boy?),Esmerella(phwoar!) so i looked 4ward to knowing them.BUT,i was a lil disappointed on yesterday itself cuz they all seemed stoned at 1st,especially during ice-breaking games time.Gee,1 of them,this weedy chi guy,who thinks so highly of himself,even whispered 2 me,"i tot Design is an adult course,but y r we playin childish games?" Wad d fcuk?but they really loosen up towards the end,n d class bond btwn some of them was visible so im happy enuff dat ive done my part as their OGL.

Tears n miscommunication

now the cocked-ups.regardin d weedy guy,when i share this wif d other OGLs,d son-of-a-gun(pardon my language 4 this post)IC or rather,In Charge of us OGLs,farked me up in front of others by sayin dat i didnt speak out well n etc.etc.so d point he was gettin at is dat i didnt do my leader job well enuff.screw him.i was havin problems wif d dumb assistant of mine(remember him?);we couldnt communicate well,he was in a world of his own n i was left alone in charge of 15 dead souls,scrutinizing at every move i took.i mean,who d hell asked him 2 place me wif some stupid assistant who thinks he's capable of everythin?or rather,who d hell asked him 2 place ME in charge of a class??urgh.im still pissed at my IC for this.i was almost to tears at dat point too.in fact,1 of my OGL frens actually did breakdown ok!thank gdness 4 my AIC(Assistant-in-charge)who oversee my problem n changed my assistant to someone more reliable.he even apologised on bhalf of my IC.sweet.there was this idiotic freshie,who grazed his hand while playin d 'Dizzy Race' game dat n he was d only 'minor' casualty of d whole orientation so it turned into a comic relief 4 us.other den dat,there were no other major screw-ups dat i could remember of.

Starved,sore,beaten but satiated

Dat was wad we OGLs felt by d end of d whole Orientation.After gdbyes 2 our freshies,we gathered at Level 6,all wif exhausted,"I-want-my-bed" faces.now,d BEST part.d seniors actually ordered 6 boxes of pizza 4 a surprise treat 4 us!like,wow.hahahah..had a 'yam-seng' toast too.n yep,dats about all.some 'kepo' SIT seniors came 2 join in 4 d food too.haha..not dat i minded since my bf was 1 of them.grinz* n yep,dats about it.n oh,wait a min.....5 more days to skool????!!!aack.


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 4:42 PM

Wednesday, July 02, 2003



My layout's screwed up again.urgh.anyway,above's a neo-card taken today,me n Ct(isnt she luvly?i look like a sick hyena bside her!heh.too bad guys,she's attached!),yep,we went shoppin again.this time,Heeren n Bugis street was attacked mercilessly :P 'Out Law world'?? no,dont ask me wad d hell it means.it came along wif d background we chose so there,it stayed.sheesh*


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:08 AM
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Uncle sha.
WITCH da babe.wan.
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