Monday, June 30, 2003


*pants-searching n leadership*

Went late afternoon shoppin wif Ct today,since we had 2 go skool last min be4 dat,for d so-called BIG announcement on wad roles we're gonna take on Orientation Day itself.whoop dee doo dahhhh...not.much 2 my shock n horror,they chose me as 1 of d OGLs(Orientation Group Leaders 4 those who're quite blur by now)in charge of d freshie's CLASS.wth???n i remembered clearly tellin them if possible,not 2 put me in charge of class,anythin but dat,or ill die on my feet,head up,eyes rolling.but nooo...they stubborn mules think im destined 4 dat.huh!n 2 make it worse,my assistant is this guy whom d rest of OGLs despise a lot,since he talks more crap den he is s'posed to.he's pretty ok actually,but if he puts on his hoity-toity nonsense on dat day itself,ill juz snap his big head off,ill tell ya.


anyway,back to shoppin.yep,was searchin 4 a new pair of pants,n gez wad?there's this drawstring pants,very bohemian,i muz say,n it costs more den $25 @ far east,(yes,we went 4 a survey n try-on session)but juz outside far east,there's this little stall sellin it for juz a freakin awesome 10 bucks each!!!WTH!!unbelievable yeah??i bought two,black n red,n am very contented wif it.:) shoppin nvr fails 2 cheer my poor old soul up,heh.dats if i hav d cash of cuz!sheesh*


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 10:32 PM

*The S'porean reject*

i feel.... stupid.i dunno y.i feel like im not givin enuff.ive been takin too much,i 4got there's such thing as 'give n take'.i dunno y im even writin this.theres dat time in ur life when u stare at ur comp screen blankly n find urself askin,"ok..so,umm..wad do i do next?" or "2 who was i s'posed 2 e-mail this 2?damn!i 4got!!".it happens.4getfulness.loss of concentration.losin track of wats happening in ur life.change of feelings 4 ppl around u.fretting 4 hours in that 'Mamak' shop,whether u should get a Mars chocolate bar or a Snickers or a Pocky.drats.i sound old,dont i?sighs* ill end this sombre blog wif a song from my latest crazed band,The All-American Rejects(thanx 2 sol for recommendin this).so long,world!


"The Last Song"

This may be the last thing that i write for long
Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, for you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.

(p.s:btw,on a lighter note,check out sam's ultra-lame + super-hilarious 'WEBCAM' section on his website!damn,i cant stop luffin now..haaaaaaaaaaaa)


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:37 AM

Saturday, June 28, 2003


sth's awfully wrong wif my 'comments'.they cant bloody work.argh.so i had 2 resort to tagboard instd.sorry,ppl!anyway,got this off fayre's site ;)

I have issues with...
love
race
freedom
drama
weakness
Take Word Association Test



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 8:32 PM

Sentosa's pics r up!


For more pics n better PLUS bigger viewing,plz access thru 'pix gallery' at ur right.credits to sam for his site's storage n wen xiang 4 these luvly pics.cheers!


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:15 AM

Friday, June 27, 2003


**~~ New layout finally!like it?tho i think d font is kinda too small..n they say purple is 4 d sexually-deprived,or so i heard from WITCH.hmm m..i personally like d pic on d right,a display of a lady's seductiveness n power to charm..yet still fragile n full of pain n sorrow inside..hm mm..on a brighter note,this wk has been a movie marathon 4 both me n my dear.we watched 'The Hulk' on wed n juz now,Charlie's Angels Full Throttle.both was a treat from him so thanx a million,dear!u noe well im damn broke :P Full Throttle was amazing.go catch it wif ur frens n go 'WHoaaaa'!d stunts were a bit Matrix-like n can i juz say Demi Moore looks damn hot despite her age.sheesh* the Angels rock as usual!cheeky,sexy,cheesy,horny,n d list goes on.. :P now for d beach thingy..who wanna go next mon??

that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:26 PM

Tuesday, June 24, 2003


Part 1 - The cry 4 justice i was extremely pissed wif the woman who gave birth 2 me.she thinks im a weakling,good-for-nuthin,troublemaker daughter.well yeah,s'posed i am.but wad the fark,i hate it when favouritism runs wild in a family.this mornin,she woke me up like a drill sergeant exactly @ 0800,even tho i requested a lil more time in bed since yesterday's Sentosa event worn me off.n she asked me 2 straightaway iron my bro's pants!wad the fark!i was like,limping,cuz some stupid pebble/course sand was crushed underneath my feet and sandals d whole of yesterday.and did she care?not 1 single fark!excuse my language but im cryin 4 justice rite now.n i feel dat typin all these out sumhow plays some calmin effect on me.cant find any1 2 share my probs wif these days.most r either bz wif their own worlds or bz tellin me bout their own probs.so nvm.anyway,juz now,4 d 1st time in my farkin life,i chanelled all my anger n hatre into...COOKING!yes,cooking!moi?cook?no way!but yes i did,n i feel much better now.funny huh.n she's happily eatin too w/o makin any noise.

Part 2 - Wad an island's life! yesterday's Sentosa wif d OGLs n seniors was ok.the not-so-Amazing Race we OGLS had 2 go thru was baloney!runnin across d super-sunny island searchin 4 clues and stations wasnt funny ok.i feel like mincing d sadistic senior who came up wif d stupid race's route.Towards d end,my group juz farkin care wif d whole competition n went our own,relaxin ways,takin pics here n there like tourists.sheesh* ill post up d pics soon once i get em from my fren.n yes!not 4gettin d fact,dat 1 hell of a bitch got in2 d group my bf was in charge of.$&*^%&^@ urgh.farkin island's life.anyway,after d whole damn race was over(we volunteered 2 b eliminated),i changed n went off 2 d waters.my 2 frens,d pair of 'lovable' idiots,Michael n Ah Ven,saw me comin and advanced 2wards me wif evil grins,wantin 2 throw me into d sea.i protested n fell over,n another dumb2 fren pulled me in so i got freakin wet in d end.my bf wasnt much of a help too.*sighs* it was fun tho.happy mood 4 once there.siloso beach was damn dark after me n my fren Ct finished washin up,n dat was only about 9pm.heh.n um mmm,feel like goin 2 d beach again be4 d hols r over..any1 wanna have a beachy time?

s0ng 0f d day:The All-American Rejects-Swing,swing



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 1:15 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2003


Aeroplanes.Lost.but Satiated.


hah.2day started off wif a plan well-deviced..met my dear @ 12 noon(as crazy as it seems,wif d hot sun above our heads),then returned my fren's LOTR's vcd @ her letterbox.afterdat,almost everythin went wild n spontaneous.lunch was on me,a belated b'day gift 4 him,so we were set on the Raffles' hospital 'Royal Banquet' (sth like dat).but d wait 4 d mrt from city hall 2 bugis was so freakin packed n slow(there was even this disgustin smell of vommit from sumwhere.yuks!)dat we walked,yes,we walked,all d way 2 d Royal Banquet,me sweatin like nuts by d time we reached there.

sheesh* n not only dat,my dear suggested sth more wacko afterdat,next stop:CHANGI AIRPORT.lol* so off we went,hahaha,n d thing is,i didnt realized my tudung's brooch was missin not until we reached d sky train(after rounds of walkins ard Terminal 2).n if it wasnt of d fact dat it belongs 2 my dearest mum,we wouldn hav backtracked our steps 2 search it.but it did,so damnit.nvr found it anyway.haven break d news 2 my mum yet,yipes!oh well...i still had 1 helluva day =) n it was worth it.worth every single naggin 4rom my mum of comin home late. *MUAKS*

s0ng 0f d day:American Idol 10 finalists-What the world needs now




that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:11 AM

Friday, June 20, 2003


*blissful relief*


aaahhh...Listenin 2 Tori Amos' 1000 Oceans @ boo's site now(ive linked her up neway so there's no excuse not 2 check out her site,ppl!hee~).tried changin my site's layout but it came out CRAP.bleurgh.didnt get d specialisation i wanted too.sighs* i wonder how im gonna survive in Games n Design 4 d next 2 upcomin yrs.gonna appeal but dunno how d format of d appeal letter should look like.im so pathetic eh?nonetheless,my spirits r still soarin high cuz im meetin him tml ;) n this luvly song is soothin enuff...i think im gonna take an afternoon nap rite....about.........now.

(Late p.s: found another Orlando Bloom's die-hard fan thru WITCH's site too :) check her site out!her collage of our gorgeous Elven hunk is to2lly fabulous!thumbs-up 2 u,Orly's gal!)

s0ng 0f d day:Tori Amos-1000 Oceans


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 4:44 PM

Thursday, June 19, 2003



Which [Finding Nemo] characters are you?


*****there's this blogger named 'boo' mostly 2 b found on WITCH's coven n i think her site is absolutely deep-sealicious cool!check it out!neway,still havin my OGL plannin,my orientation is on 3rd july so ive not much time 2 update..sorry peeps!time 4 me 2 get a new layout :( any1 out there willin 2 revamp 4 me?i can pay! *big,innocent puppy-eyed look*


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 2:49 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2003


*my fellow SDN OGL crew*



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:30 AM

Saturday, June 14, 2003


*sings* We can hav together-ness..


1st n foremost,yes,i m still very much ALIVE so a million apologies 4 not been updatin my blog.
2ndly,whoaaa!!there were so many stuff dat happened d past few days dat im wonderin now,how in d blue hell m i gonna put it all in2 words here?im kinda brain-dead n body-dead(err?)after 1 wk of OGL plannin,humiliation we had 2 face,n of cuz,d FUN.d humiliation part..well..1of them was,on dat 12th June itself,we were all wearin bloody red(we're DAT united!woo)n we had 2 run ard level 6 while singin some lame n childish songs,4 our punishment of 4mins late of handin in proposal.sheesh* tok bout torture!
Coincidencally,it was my Sam's,my dear2,20th b'day :) so we sang a so-called multi-racial B'day song 4 him too.heh.n oh boy,my poor dear had 2 go thru whackin-up sessions d day be4 n on his b'day itself so if he's readin this,i wanna salute him 4 takin it all like a man.hahaha.give him some credit,ppl!he even had ice-creams goin down his pants ok!n d cake dat i had 2 rush n buy,in s'port of d seniors,didnt go 2 watse too!hahaa..
N oh oh!!ive been extremely nice 2 d bitch these days.seems like she's given up on puttin her ugly moves on my bf.she might as well pair off wif this other idiot from her course,whom ive sort of made foes wif.he's damn irritatin ok!juz ask WITCH,she noes best! *lol* well,yeah.dats about wad i can type rite now.feelin a bit shitty cuz of this cold ive developed.prolly due 2 either sam's new hugo boss perfume(b'day gift from his luvly mum)or juz d fact dat im physically tired.ZZzZzzzZZZZz..


that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:29 AM

Saturday, June 07, 2003


Woo i am so fagged out.


Went for d OGL(Orientation Group Leader)planning yesterday n woah,wad d freakin hell was i in there in d 1st place huh??me?leadership?rite..i bet my old frens r gonna luff their asses out if they noe im commitin myself 2 entertain freshies n shout here n there n jump up n down n shake my booty like nobody's business.i was nvr a leader type,nvr was,n nvr be!u can make me in charge of sth bhind d scenes,sth more low profile n lesser ppl 2 tok to,but in charge of 18 ppl i dun even noe?or 20?ppl wif lethargic,im-gonna-die-soon-if-u-dont-do-sth-worth-my-time faces n attitudes?oh please!spare me!
Den i was separated wif my clazmate,Ct who went under design team n worst of all,Witch (*sobs*)n got stuck in a chinese-speakin community,whom r my so-called ogl frens.sheesh.i mean,they remember me stimes,n switched to Channel 5 langauge 4 my sake,but most of d times,im like this invisible idiot,starin in2 space,thinkin bout wad 2 eat 4 dinner.oh well.since they noe each other very well cuz they attended d camp n all dat so im obviously d left out.so they couldn blame me 4 being d silent freak who luffs n smiles when there's a neccesary need 2.ive toked 2 most of em already durin d ice-breakin games we hav 2 create,some r very nice ppl even tho they look 'beng' n dangerous.they prefer 2 call me 'mira' rather den 'nini' too.hah.ill attempt 2 adjust myself 2 d chi-speakin atmosphere n d ppl in d next upcomin wk.blee~
actually,ive been doin dat eva since i went in2 my course so wth. :p n oh,no cute ogl wannabes in my course!!waaaaa....wad a spoiler eh?n urgghhhhh,i even saw some1 i dun freakin wish 2 c in my entire life.she went 4 d ogl too,damnit.thank gdness she's in a diff course.she may as well set her rotten flirty moves there but DONT SHE EVER THINK OF GOIN EVEN 1METRE NEAR FROM MY BF!!or i swear ill tell Witch 2 curse her in2 some smelly,fungi-infested asparagus!

s0ng 0f d day:Simple Plan-Addicted



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 2:36 AM

Tuesday, June 03, 2003


Reunion

So after wks of so-called plannin,d ex Fuchun-Sec of 2001(actually juz classes 4/8 n 4/9) gatherin finally happened 2day.phew.wad an outin!quite a number turned up,some couldn make it last min,n some UNexpected ones appeared.*lol* d guys outnumbered d ladies as usual.oh well.neway,we ate @ Marina Square,told each other bout each own's interestin feature of his/her poly course(eg.1 BioTech fren has 2 operate poor lil fishy n cut off rabbit's ears 2 pass a module..another 1 has 2 draw 3/4 naked men on easels...etc,etc.)n all these over delicious,scrumptious Black Pepper rice n chicken wings... *groans*
Den wif bloated tummies,we walked off 2 d Esplanade n back to Suntec City where d guys left us ladies @ d arcade(!!!)bleah..all d same,d day ended up wif a sweet,hilarious chit-chat session @ this posh eatin place where we sort of 'bought' d comfy,plush seats wif only a cup of ice tea.hahahahaah...hm mm..fun yeah fun. :) but im tired now.n my legs r pretty worn off.so when r we gonna hav d next gathering eh??

s0ng 0f d day:Deftones-Lucky You



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 11:29 PM

Monday, June 02, 2003


*Unlock these secrets in me*


Last nite,i couldn slp,worryin over sth.lately,my mind has been filled 2 d brim wif so many qns,qns dat need answers,qns wif no answers,qns dat linger in my head longer than they're s'posed 2,qns,qns n more qns!i even feel sick 2 ask my brain 2 function 4 these thoughts n qns are wearin me out.hav u ever had these deep,profound qns dat u want anwers 2 so badly?Qns dat risk ur own religion,ur own worth,ur own morality?After prayers n prayers n still u cant find dat particular ans 4 ur own contentment n sense of security?
As a Muslim,i try 2 think positive,i turn to God,i ask Him 4 answers.im not tryin 2 preach here,everyone wif his/her own religion most 2 most,turn 2 their God 4 answers in d end.But mb im not tryin hard enuff.Hav i been a gd Muslim so far?i think not.mb askin these qns is a sin.How bout talks n discussions on sex?a sin too?a taboo,probably yes.but a sin?
Den there r qns like,y n wad am i livin 4?wats my purpose?my reason?My roles?Responsibilities?My choices?Gettin more matrix here huh?but seriously,i cant help but think n ask,n ponder n discuss.At times,i feel uneasy 2 share these thoughts wif ppl,wif d society.They might condemn me,they might s'port me,but still d answers r not completely reached.
After readin Bubu's blog(see Bohemian Babe),i cant help but think again.Am i a gd Muslimah?I had a choice 2 make 6 yrs ago.n i chose 2 wear d tudung(or hijab).Thruout condemnation of my own frens,of my own race,i persevered.But den again,even after wearin it,i still make sins.i hav my own desires,my wants n my needs,d urge 2 try new things,d taste of doin wrong n rebellion against my own self n my loved ones.Afterall,im only human.n i still think.i hav my emotions,n i dun comprehend them at all.Therefore,qns arise n im back to square one again..................................
Wad say YOU then?

s0ng 0f d day:Splender-I think God can explain



that kitty next door frees a bottled buterfly @ 12:22 PM
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