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Sunday, May 30, 2004
hello
Sunday, December 21, 2003
alrites all,i have moved!!!!!!
go here,sugar daddies & mummies:
SHE'S BACK!!
so dont forget to update ur links yea??ill add ur links soon!ta`~~~~`~~~
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
HEY PPL!
yes im not dead yet.haha.im doin ok,thank you very much.but im currently still on HIATUS so yep,dont miss me so much (rite!! =p) .ill be back hopefully next year with a new everything.
and yep to all who have shown your love & concern on my tagboard,thank you dearies,yes,i miss u guys too! & to those wonderin wad has happened to me & sameer,yes,u gez it rite again,we're back together & so much in love than before.
so thanks for showin your love & support;mark my words,i'll be back!
yes im not dead yet.haha.im doin ok,thank you very much.but im currently still on HIATUS so yep,dont miss me so much (rite!! =p) .ill be back hopefully next year with a new everything.
and yep to all who have shown your love & concern on my tagboard,thank you dearies,yes,i miss u guys too! & to those wonderin wad has happened to me & sameer,yes,u gez it rite again,we're back together & so much in love than before.
so thanks for showin your love & support;mark my words,i'll be back!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!!
Friday, November 21, 2003
DUN GIVE UP....
hello everyone... my name is Sameer.. yes im the one causing so much problem to nini. Im the guy that caused her life to be a living hell... and im not proud to say it...
nini has left her blog world, and she had planned to shut it down... but i wont let that happen... dats y she decided to leave me with her account and password... i knoe i have no right to do this coz its not my blog... but i wont let this account shut down because of a fued i had wif her... yes now things are not good but i promise u with my whole heart dat things will be better and dat i hope to restore life back in this blog as i hav seen many ppl come here to post their comments and views... pls continue to do so... coz i love her and i knoe evryone who have been here likes nini alot..
pls, send a comment or plea for her to come back to the blog world... if it means i have to sacrifice my relationship to make her come back here.. den so be it, i love her almost more than life itself...
i knoe she will see this and i hope to get this across to her dat my life can never challenge dat of u... u are too precious than life itself... wad you want, i'll give it to u.. if i can't, den i'll die tryin... coz i dun want anythin to end... i dun want our love to end.. i juz want to be wif u coz a moment knowing that you're sad breaks my heart... yes i knoe im wrong... i apologize for my wrong doing.. but pls dun leave me or everyone in this world... they all love u... and i love u too.. please...
hello everyone... my name is Sameer.. yes im the one causing so much problem to nini. Im the guy that caused her life to be a living hell... and im not proud to say it...
nini has left her blog world, and she had planned to shut it down... but i wont let that happen... dats y she decided to leave me with her account and password... i knoe i have no right to do this coz its not my blog... but i wont let this account shut down because of a fued i had wif her... yes now things are not good but i promise u with my whole heart dat things will be better and dat i hope to restore life back in this blog as i hav seen many ppl come here to post their comments and views... pls continue to do so... coz i love her and i knoe evryone who have been here likes nini alot..
pls, send a comment or plea for her to come back to the blog world... if it means i have to sacrifice my relationship to make her come back here.. den so be it, i love her almost more than life itself...
i knoe she will see this and i hope to get this across to her dat my life can never challenge dat of u... u are too precious than life itself... wad you want, i'll give it to u.. if i can't, den i'll die tryin... coz i dun want anythin to end... i dun want our love to end.. i juz want to be wif u coz a moment knowing that you're sad breaks my heart... yes i knoe im wrong... i apologize for my wrong doing.. but pls dun leave me or everyone in this world... they all love u... and i love u too.. please...
is it over?
my wedding fantasies are over.my baby names will never come be names for babies.
im emotionless.i feel empty.i feel..nothing..i didnt cry.i didnt whine.i just scrubbed that hellluva dirty window of mine.i still cant believe u asked me that question "do you love me or not?" i cant believe u asked that after 13 months of being together.
you still misunderstood me.i cant be bothered to say anything else.ill just keep mumb from now till the day i feel like talking to you back.i wont say anything else to you,to defy you on what you have juz said to me,to go against your stand.i wont sms you.i wont double click on ur nick when i see ure online on msn.i wont call you.i wont have anything more to do with you now.
i dont need time & space to think.think of what?nothing else.everything has been clarified from your point of views.you're wrong.and you're right on some point.its not up to me now to decide.its up to US.or fate.or whatever you call it.i dont know,i simply dont know.right now,i dont know anything,i dont know how to react,i dont know what to say,i dont know,i dont know.
you said im trying to mould you into some guy i desire.you're wrong.i just wanted to change your ways cuz i dont want to see you hurt.is it wrong?to even correct someone i love?i know now it is.i look myself in the mirror everyday.i know im not perfect.i cant be perfect.you cant be perfect.i know that.but it isnt wrong to try.i tried.i told you so it wont happen again.you kept everything to yourself.you didnt loved me cuz u didnt tell me where my mistakes lie till the very end.its too late now,isnt it?no,i dont think so.
you're a good man.so u told me to find someone else.you know for well i cant.how could i?i love you,for goddamn's sake.enough.enough is enough.
to all bloggers,sorry but i dont think ill be blogging for a long while.
Sunday, November 16, 2003
~ Ode to the Bloodsucker ~
(a tribute to the devilishly sexy Vampire Lestat by me)
Im sucked into a black whirlpool of earth
Im deaf,im blind,i cant say a word
I tried to breathe but all i can feel
Is the darkness seeping thru my veins
Arousing the yearning for virgin blood of saints
I cursed and i frothed
And the the heat beneath me burns my soul
Is this the meaning of eternity?
Living in a world of hypocrisy?
Cuz i dont wanna spend it alone
Or hide myself forever in the shadows
On the forbidden grounds each night i roam
The earth where death lies,i call my home
And where i rest, i tried to feel blessed
But nothing cleans this guilt off my hands
I tried to tell you,i thought you would understand
but you screamed and you run
And i stand alone,once again shunned.
Is this the meaning of immortality?
Living in a world of misery?
Cuz i dont wanna live on my own
Or cry by myself forever,all forlorn.
I want to walk through the morning crowd again
I want to feel anything but this pain
But its too late,too late for regrets
Too late to turn back
too late,too late............
comments anyone?
Friday, November 14, 2003
**Shopping sistas reunion**
went shopping wif elizabeth in town the other day.coincidencally CT & her fren,Hanis planned to go shopping too so the 4 of us went together,happy buzzing chicks free of skool & stuff.
god,was i so happy to see eliz.missed her so much ever since we were separated by different specialisations this year.she,in animation,& poor me in games.sighs* nonetheless,we can still talk to each other like women born in the same cradle,hahaha.we exhanged laments,guy problems,missed-out gossips,whose cute whose not,etc,etc.you know wad i mean.
neways,bought my hari raya clothes finally yesterday.its like,woah,some wedding suit or something,turqoise blue wif silver lining. sheesh* n my sis,phew!striking giler! haha..cant blame her cuz she's like,still young & all.*shrugs* love her wicked pointed shoes tho.
so yea,thats bout it.gonna post up a poem for my next entry,juz wait 4 it.
and to him,i miss you dearrrrrr... :(
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
You're "One Step Closer." You like to be
underground. You might have a weird obsession
with strange looking ninjas. By the end...you
have a bad headache from being upside-down with
those crazy ninjas!!!
What Linkin Park Video are You? (With Chester Pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla
thanx to breakblaze 4 this quiz ;)
whoopee doo dah~ Chester is deliciously cuuute!hehe..got me some new high heels today in Johor Bahru.they are meant for Hari Raya actually but they kinda umm mm..matches my jeans & all..so umm..haha..i might be wearing them for skool too next year,who knows? heels are never my cup of tea.i rather wear flats; flats make me comfortable,make me confident of running after my bus when im late for class,make me sure i wont fall sideways.
but well,i told myself,im 18,man.heels are in.ladies' shoes.time for me to be more like that.lady-like.urghh.anyways,they're a gd reason for me to look taller than my 13 year old sister whose outgrowing me everyday. *pouts* aint fair!but it doesnt kill to look young & ppl mistaking you for being the smaller sister..hahaha..
and yeah,i miss you.yes,you,you know who you are.i miss you so damn much.but when i woke up this morning and saw ur msg @ 0630,it makes me feel..i dunno,weirdly warm inside.like,the feeling of you waking up early to work and all,it makes me feel like as though you're gonna be this gd husband for me.hahaha..okok,im dreaming.but i still miss you.
sighs...
Monday, November 10, 2003
Akasha & Lestat against Neo & Trinity?hmm mm
aight people,like my new gothic layout?
i tot my site could do some serious revamping after sticking to sweet,soft colours for the past layouts. getting a tad too sickening for me. so with my morbid love for vampires & in loving memory of the late Aaliyah, i came out with this new baby.heh.
my inspiration also came after finally getting to read Anne rice's QOTD novel;the novel's 1 million times better than d movie. & anyways, Matrix Evolutions wasnt as gd as expected.bah! i mean,the ending totally sucks. i love d battles,especially the one in Zion,but d ending spoilt everything.& i do mean,EVERYTHING. im not gonna say anythin more,in case i spoil it for those who havent yet catch it,heh.and please vote yea people after tagging?juz wanna see ur comments on the movie ;) maybe i can produce a better movie in the future,lol* yeah rite..
& ohh ohhhhhh!!cant wait for Troy the movie! Brad Pitt!!Orlando bloom!Eric Bana!! *salivates* ok,gross.hahaa.. but i cant help it; i was so darn excited upon seein d trailer: Trojan times & all. magnificiently eeping cool!
and yeah, im actually not feeling too good today.my bf juz started his 3-months IPP(attachment) @ some pasir panjang company called 'Crimson Logic' .. :( boo dang banana blue underwears!sighs... misery is me.... :(
aight people,like my new gothic layout?
i tot my site could do some serious revamping after sticking to sweet,soft colours for the past layouts. getting a tad too sickening for me. so with my morbid love for vampires & in loving memory of the late Aaliyah, i came out with this new baby.heh.
my inspiration also came after finally getting to read Anne rice's QOTD novel;the novel's 1 million times better than d movie. & anyways, Matrix Evolutions wasnt as gd as expected.bah! i mean,the ending totally sucks. i love d battles,especially the one in Zion,but d ending spoilt everything.& i do mean,EVERYTHING. im not gonna say anythin more,in case i spoil it for those who havent yet catch it,heh.and please vote yea people after tagging?juz wanna see ur comments on the movie ;) maybe i can produce a better movie in the future,lol* yeah rite..
& ohh ohhhhhh!!cant wait for Troy the movie! Brad Pitt!!Orlando bloom!Eric Bana!! *salivates* ok,gross.hahaa.. but i cant help it; i was so darn excited upon seein d trailer: Trojan times & all. magnificiently eeping cool!
and yeah, im actually not feeling too good today.my bf juz started his 3-months IPP(attachment) @ some pasir panjang company called 'Crimson Logic' .. :( boo dang banana blue underwears!sighs... misery is me.... :(
Friday, November 07, 2003
ITS OVER!!
its over,its over,its finally over!!
ok.not really.my group didnt do the stupidah storyboard & poster(we didnt had time!) so they gave us extension till next wednesday which is just absolutely fantastic.so rite now,im free to think about whatever i want,dun have to care bout anything else,dont have to rush home for buka and basically strip myself & dance in the rain heck caring everyone..hahahaha..
gee im going crazy.it was the worst presentation i ever had,believe me.standing there like ages.everything was so freakin last minute.haha n the game's movie i did totally sucks.lol.i mean,it did came out & the lecturer commented dat it was a gd effort BUT i shoulda make use of more effects.blah blah. no mood to redo it again.i want my life back!
n i want to watch Matrix Revolutions!!
i wanna watch i wanna watch i wanna watch!
its over,its over,its finally over!!
ok.not really.my group didnt do the stupidah storyboard & poster(we didnt had time!) so they gave us extension till next wednesday which is just absolutely fantastic.so rite now,im free to think about whatever i want,dun have to care bout anything else,dont have to rush home for buka and basically strip myself & dance in the rain heck caring everyone..hahahaha..
gee im going crazy.it was the worst presentation i ever had,believe me.standing there like ages.everything was so freakin last minute.haha n the game's movie i did totally sucks.lol.i mean,it did came out & the lecturer commented dat it was a gd effort BUT i shoulda make use of more effects.blah blah. no mood to redo it again.i want my life back!
n i want to watch Matrix Revolutions!!
i wanna watch i wanna watch i wanna watch!
